My Life is back!! Finally!! xD

How the it's not!? HUH!?
Yeah because my PhotoshopCS4 is beeeeekkkk xDDD muhahahaha *sarcasm laugh*

I have 2 new picture of works. A customization actually.


Future Sound - YUI (wallpaper)
Original size 1024x768 pixels
(download here)


Tommy Heavenly6 (Tomoko Kawase) - Heavy Starry Chain
(download here)

Well, that's all :) hope you like it minna san :)


Love,

watermelon fever *lmao*

New layout :)
I finally can made my floating menu :) thanks to dynamicdrive.com :D and it's all in peach, piank, white, green, and dark brown xD not a color scheme I usually use... but I'll do anything for this watermelon theme xDD muhahahaha!!

So what do you think? :) isn't it cute? :)
I took most of the pic and pixel goodies from deviantart (a very useful site for someone like meh).

Ato de, minna ♥

Imma Totally BADASS

Imma Totally Badass


Did you have something in your self that even you your self hate it? I do have a lot of it. And still idk why those things are still here and dammit why I can't take it off my self??! Doh.

I'm too naive. Over thinking. Self-centered. Selfish. Not as strong as I was. Too many bad imagination. I can feel it I can't be so calm doing everything with thoughts of the last-thing-happened-ever
Goddammit I should be dead.


Alot of new things happened nicely and miserably on me since I've been touched outside my world. It was and still messy but I can't afford liking it. I know him. I know her. I know them. Get to know him, her and they. Then it's not her-him-or-they anymore; it became US.

Silly how much I want to split out how terrible I AM now, I still can't. I shouldn't bring too much of my privacy on blog x_x dangerous. For me.

To a special person. Very special special special person I want to apologize and thank you, anyway. Even if you said somehow boring with blogging, and if that means you dont wanna see anything on my blog. You're my first almost on all the new experience. 1st band. 1st song (I made my first inspired when I couldn't afford to feel embarassed I can't even know the small things I used to do can hurt you ). 1st man (you're not a boy anymore. I know that and I like that). 1st koibito (so do the 1st backstreet). 1st hug. 1st kiss. 1st love. 1st person I care too much. 1st happiness I can't tell. 1st person made me feel like I can do anything fot you. 1st ride. 1st man I sitted down right beside me on my living room (well, if there's a boy or man on my living room, I'll always sit in front of him; as a host offcourse. But different wit you). 1st motivation and support. 1st 22nd December. 1st partner (euh..sorry if you don't feel the same. I do sorry ). 1st person I feel that I should be dead for every hurting you. 1st fear of being hated. 1st weak weak weakness. 1st person that made me think I should be more girly. 1st pslasrue (random letters. Feel bothered to re-arrange it by yourself). 1st man who spoil me in the way I like. 1st attention and care I got from a man-other-than-family-and-close-girl-friends (and that feels good. Very good). 1st yosakoi. 1st pray everyday everytime beside my parents. 1st person I want to be with forever. 1st person I want to have my childs with and always beside me after that 'till rising our child. 1st person I want to always be my Leader (dan imam). 1st learn to cook. 1st destiny. 1st future. 1st IRC Channel. And perhaps... my last? Amiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnn .

I'm so sorry for you to have a girlfriend like meh. Imma totally badass. You shouldn't call me an ice breaker I still can't really break the ice of you so you will feel comfortable to lemme know what's inside your head, your heart, how actually honestly you're feeling, why are you this and why are you that, what you want from me, how do you think of me. There's still an unbroken-ed ice on you. frozen and strong. It don't even visible like an ice. I can't see trough it. It is more like a rock. Do you know how much I want to hold you not outside the ice? I know you're more even warm inside. I want to understand you better than I understand my own self. I know you deserve someone much better than me I'm sorry for that but I want that's ME. You know I love you too much. You're too good to be true but since now you're already true, I'll stand for it whatever it costs.

And minna san, so sorry for all this saying. Silly me I know. I just want to write what I want to say out loud right now. Let's feel bothered about reading this, so let us leave it alone

Shinpaishinaide Mao chan...daijoubu dakara Just remember all the supporting words and power he had ever gave you. Don't even memorize the bad things happened before. Just think he loves you eventhough not like you love him. Don't you ever imagine you'll had someone like him before, huh, Mao chan? Now you have better than you could ever expect! , Mao chan!! What's the big deal you the Lucky Badass?? He care about you anyway.



Arigatou ne Papah chan Hontou ni, hontou ni aishite iru no wa.. Gomen ne..

EVERYDAY DOWNLOAD + BLOOD *vomit*

Since 3 days ago, everyday I download something. I don't really use for downloading something but hell yeah I download movies, mp3 albums, even a converter and dictionary XD~

I've downloaded Cutie Honey the movie live, The Machine Girl (yang jadi main character, Minase Yashiro, AV Idol bener ga sih?), Tokyo Friends, and right now my IDM is downloading..Tokyo Friends ^^; I made a mistake today on downloading Tokyo Friends ^^; seharusnya aku lebih merhatiin description (bahkan judulnya. Dasar bego lu Mal). Judulnya udah jelas-jelas Tokyo Friends 01 dan pastinya ada 02 03 dan seterusnya xD waktu download sub nya juga 01 02 03 xD payah xD padahal pas dibawahnya ada link download Tokyo Friends The Movie. Payah yah =,=

Aku masih ngelist donlotan nih. Yang jadi target donlot setelah Tokyo Friends ini selesai, japan horror xP~ Udah ngelist linknya Uzumaki, ampe Chakusin Ari + The Grudge walopun udah liat xD *sarap* Ghost Train, Last Coffin, Tokyo Gore Police. Udah ^^; cape. gatau itu bisa keturutan semua ato nggak, xD~ yang pasti, yang udah ditonton ada di bagian terbawah xD




Yang paling berkesan, film ini xD~ I watch this when I was dizzy and really want to vomit while watching this xD but in the same time I want to laugh xD emang sih darah moncrot muncrat kemana-mana tapi ada yang lucu xD darah selalu nyemprot kayak air ketika kita menginginkannya ^^; jadi kayak nyiramin tanaman pake darah deh :p movie mistakenya banyak sekali terutama ketika Minase cuman punya satu tangan doank. Kan buntung tuh tangannya. Tapi suer ini bunuh2an dhoank isinya. T*hi T^T

VIEW SCREENSHOT:



(click for bigger size)

First pict itu waktu tangannya Minase Yashiro nggak sengaja kecemplung adonan tempura xD terus si ibu2 psikopat kacamataan itu maksa tangannya Minase masuk ke penggorengan xDDD Jadi deh a delicious tempura hand of Minase Yashiro xD~

btw btw..
Tau nggak game-game horor jepang sejenis Fatal Frame, Kuon ato Siren? Eh itu fatal Frame emang ada movienya nggak sih? =_=;; denger2... dulu sih. Dengernya begitu. A. XD~ *nemplok ke google* adanya rumors mulu males ah xD But if it's real I'd love to see!! Rlly ♥

Yang bukan Horror juga ada loh :) rata-rata sih yang maen, Natsumi Abe: Prison Girl + Last Present (reviewnya, ni film sedih abis). Ga seberapa tertarik sih setelah ketemu horror xD~

doodles minna. makan siang sambil donlot. muah~

Final Exam and SNMPTN

Final exam already.
And this is exactly the same occasion 6 years ago when my papah chan promise he won't be fallen asleep again xDD~ awwww u're so sweet *smooch* Thank you sooo much for your support sweetheart :) Setiap hari kita harus ganbatte yah :D~

Kangen yukkun... *gag nyambung*

Oh iya, buat yang snmptn hari ini ganbatte semuanya ^^ buat O'ong, Rin juga yang calon koohai ku xDDD jyakakakakakak Berjuang yah :)

I don't rlly had an experience with snmpth xD only with pmdk xDDD that time I realize the questions of the test must be come from hell ^^; but I've done with that and I pass the test! wooow... hail to Your tensainess My Lord... alhamdulillah... :)



Listening to: Back-On - A day Dreaming

Arigatou Yukkun :)

Mmh.. yukkun please tell my apology to your friends.. I'm sure they've been waiting for you they even calls you but... well yeah thanks you so much for the chance and the forgiveness you gave me :) I will be all that you want.

You were so sweet. You are so sweet. And you're always be so sweet :) Thank you soooo much for spending time with me for a while


I LOVE YOU SOOOO MUCH

youknowwhat?yousmellssodamngoodandyoutastesodamnsweet*lick*

I CANCEL MY AUDITION

Oush! Now let's continue study for the final exam wow.. 5 days left! Shimatta~ still I haven't found my Kaiwa group for final paperwork..yet

3 days already passed and I cut those time which I have so many, with...making my song ugh~ the inspiration is came rlly not in a right time. Gah. Because I've been listening to music while I'm study. And when there were something came inside my head I shall record and wrote it immediately. Gosh now I have 3 chords for 3 song alredy. Forgive me God..

Err~ Actually,
I've been planning on join an audition for Indonesia Choir team. It's national range. Good isn't it? The students who will be choosen to be in the choir team will be performing on Istana Merdeka the next August 17, and performing on Sidang MPR. Big chance. Highway chance . But hellayeah I pass the audition already. The audition have been held yesterday (for outer Java) and today (for Java). The audition held at Taman Budaya, Cak Durasim building (err~ remind me of lot of memories there). It's a national range but the audition is only in Surabaya. Whoa. Hail to Surabaya which had so many professional people.

Yesterday, my Momma told me to just observing how the audition goes. Since I haven't been on a audition like that for years (my last national audition is when I was on my first grade on junior high. I made it and being the only one 1st grade student among ALL TEAM. Hail to my tensainess ). Well~ the audition is just all the way still the same: singing one of so many national song, and then following the piano note the couch played, reading musical note with singing it. Quiet easy. Really. But now I lost all my confidence . I haven't been singing with that type of voice for years! I need practice you know. I can't let out tha type of voice easily. My voice is...so little. Some of you know that especially if you often see me on band practice. Well yeah even my Momma have told me multiple time that my voice isn't kinda suitable for female lead vocal on a band. I can't scream beautifully if it's not on a falsetto one and I know that .

So well, back to topic. I pass the audition . Daddy and Momma is disappointed.. Gomen ne. I don't think I can do it just because my Momma is one of the council. Well yeah Dad's right when he said "we won't know something if we don't try it". Ehehehe. I pass. Thank you. I'll just spend my time here in my lovely room updating my blog with this post and continue my study. Good luck minna san .

...and... Wish me luck on my final exam

Toodles.